A Clutter of Memories
I am a clutter queen. I keep almost every thing with the excuse that I will need it one day. Most of the time I don’t. It will take me ages to actually throw out something.
Two nights ago, I went through some boxes and found stuff that I thought were long lost. Most of the things I keep are usually used for my arts and crafts. I love making stuff. Thank goodness for these skills because I am refining them to make props for my productions. 
Yay!!
Anyways, back to the clutter. I found photo albums filled with photos of my trip to USA, I missed my time there, I miss my friends. How bad was do I miss them? I actually had a dream of me being back in Berea that very night. I really, really miss the USA. I want to go back there. Hopefully in 2010, I will be there.
I also stumble upon a book V gave me. On the flyleaf, he wrote something very beautiful for me. To that, I cried myself to sleep.
It is almost 2 years now, he has moved on so must I but perhaps that is why I still hang on to the clutter despite it swallowing me whole. I am somehow to afraid to move forward or I do not want to move forward. I am not sure.
Man, I should clean out that place I call a bedroom. Perhaps things will start looking up for me.
Letting go is hard but if you keep holding on, you can barely move. I am sure it is just a phase you will need to get through..