Lately I have been listening to Nickelback’s If Today Was Your Last Day and it became a realization for me. The lyrics…

Nickelback Lyrics
If Today Was Your Last Day Lyrics

These 3 chunks:-

“Each day’s a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride�

“Every second counts ’cause there’s no second try
So live like you’ll never live it twice
Don’t take the free ride in your own lifeâ€?

And

“So do whatever it takes
‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin’ stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side�

Are really getting to me.

Yes, if you have been following my crazy saga over the years, you will have probably guessed the core of this particular entry. It is correct; I am crushing on a guy.

A lot of my friends like this guy and think I should give it a try but I have been coming up with a lot of reasons (Excuses, depending on which angle you are reading this)

1. I believe, “He is not that into me�. (If you are a SATC fan, you would understand this phrase)
2. I do not want to make the first move.
3. I think he likes someone else.
4. I am afraid of rejection. (And yes, you lot will come back to me and say, “Isn’t everybody?�)

What’s a girl to do now?

Yes, I really like this guy.

A major scare last week made me realize how fragile our lives are.

Grandmama had a minor stroke which affected her speech. She is better now. Sadly, there is the lack of luster that she usually carries in her smile. But seeing that she went from hospital bed to the family living room back in Johor in just 2 days; is a good sign that she is recovering fairly fast.

Personally, I was prepared for the worst. I know it sounds very pessimistic of me but I am honest with my feelings. I bet that the same feeling was lingering in the hearts and minds of many of my family members though I bet none would admit it. After all, it is the festive season and no one wants bad news.

So this year, the cousins and I kicked it up a notch. We celebrated like crazy and played like there is no tomorrow. For me, I hardly play blackjack but guess what I won RM38. Teehee!!!

The most important thing is my family is together for the first time in a few years now.

Tomorrow, we are heading back to Penang for a few days to visit family.

So many people but too little time.

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

This is a response to Halim’s Hari-Hari Cinta. A beautiful piece which inspired me to pen my own feelings.

A Weak Love (or A Week of Love)

I prayed for you on Monday,
I saw you on Tuesday,
I brushed passed you on Wednesday,
I uttered, “Hi!� on Thursday,
I fell for you on Friday,
I ran from you on Saturday,
I cried for you on Sunday.

I am a fan of Daniel Powter’s Bad Day… But move over Bad day… Here comes a BAD WEEK… A real bad week for yours truly…
How bad is this week? Very bad…
And in order to make me feel better, I am going to bitch about this.

I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to make me doubt myself as a person,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to make me question my skills and talents,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to make me have reservations about my faith,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to make me feel like calling it quits,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to revive the monster that I once buried,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to tear down the walls I once built,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to bring back dead memories,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to flood my life with idiots and fools,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to wreck relationships that took years to build,
I can’t believe that one bad week has manage to make me not want to wake up in the morning,
But I guess, it actually does take one bad week to show that I am actually ALIVE.