The life and mind of Adeline Ong

There are many things I want to say,
But I cannot find the courage or a way,
One day I finally will but not just today,
Each moment passes day by day.

My mouth is dry, my heart won’t sway,
No matter, how badly I want you to stay,
I just await the time you’ll fly away,
Without you my days will turn to gray.

Perhaps then I’ll have the courage to say,
I loved you since the very first day,
I loved you in every possible way,
Stay with me, please don’t go away.

I thought it was over but apparently not,
Once provoked my temper is extremely hot,
I attack everything and everyone my eyes caught,
I spew poison in my words without a thought.

My anger consumes me like a cancer,
My anger is the evil pied piper,
To its tune, I am its dancer,
Going into hate, deeper and deeper.

Life cannot be forced upon anyone,
It is theirs and it is up to them on how they should live it,
Life has to be experience, not taught,
You cannot correct your own life by dictating others’.

She looks at me,
I want to play,
Her big eyes full of glee,
I want to play all day.

I chose to ignore her,
There are other things to do,
I push her further and further,
Into the darkness sea of blue.

Can I please play?
She asks once more,
Without a sense of dismay,
After I tried to ignore.

I moved away,
No time for play,
No time today,
Life is this way.

20 years passed,
I finally wanted to play,
On the road at dusk,
The child has gone away.

You told me you do not fear death,
Just that you fear to die alone,
Let me tell with my last breath,
No relationship is cast in stone.

Loneliness will slowly consume you,
As you wallow in endless sorrow,
Sooner or later, your time is due,
Run as you may, death will follow.