Where do we go from here?

This is the story of a brother, a father, a husband, a son, a friend and a human being. It’s is written by his sister, I am just reposting it. My prayers are with the family, my adopted family. I pray for justice and the Grace of the Creator.

The story begins…

On March 11th, he was arrested at his apartment’s parking lot in Segambut. Police brought him to an apartment he rented in Kepong, and after entering, claimed that in that residence, he possessed 800grams of cocaine, and 140grams of methamphetamine, and accused him of processing and trafficking, putting him under the risk of being charged under Section 39B, which carries the death penalty.

On March 12th he was remanded for 7 days. When my parents inquired if we can engage a lawyer, the Investigation Officer told us “No need”.

On March 17th, after our family waited more than an hour, we were allowed to see him for the very first time, under supervision.

Again my mother asked if we should get him a lawyer, again the I.O advised against it, claiming “Lawyer tak boleh buat apa-apa sekarang. Buang duit je. (Lawyer can’t do anything now. It’s simply a waste of money).”

On March 18th, his remand was extended another 7 days. The magistrate inquired why there was no lawyer present for him, and whether he was made aware he had the right to a counsel of his choice. He replied “No.” Therefore, he requested for one, and only nine hours later, did the I.O call to inform my mother, who promptly engaged Amer Hamzah Arshad.

But the very next day, the police used their Executive authority under Section 28A that vetoed his right to a counsel. All requests made by our lawyer to visit him was denied.

Only after we complained to SUHAKAM, did the police allow Amer to visit him.

On the last day of his remand.

After the investigations were concluded.

For only 15 minutes.

On March 25th, he was brought to court, and charged under Section 12(2) for possession of 0.24grams of metaphetamin in his Segambut residence. Nothing the police claimed they found in the Kepong residence, the cocaine and shabu that was “already packaged to be distributed” or the so called “cocaine processing mini-lab” was brought to court.

Because there WAS none.

He was released on bail. A trial date was set. He was so close to being free, and seeing his 4 year old son again.
But as he was signing the papers of his release, the Plainclothes were outside waiting.

Not two steps after he came out of the bail department, without any explanation, they re-arrested him. Amer was restrained from protecting him, and only after Amer repeatedly asked them to show their I.D, did they do so. Still, no explanation was given to the family. We were merely told to go to the Headquarters and speak to Inspector Kang. The same guy who claimed my brother possessed the cocaine they NEVER found.

He never saw us, he was “in a meeting.” He wasn’t too occupied to give the press a statement, but was unavailable to see us.

We were told by the new I.O for this case, and the DSP (the guy who signed the papers denying my brother the right to a counsel) that they are detaining him for 60 days under the Special Preventive Measures Act (LPK), after which, they could further detain him for 2 years if found guilty.

Guilty according to THEM. For under this act, it is a detention without trial, like the Internal Security Act. Any information gathered from “witnesses” and “investigations” will never be disclosed to him or his lawyer, or the court. He will also not be able to defend himself against any allegations. Under this act, he will never have his day in court.

On March 25th, my brother, Ben, was denied his Constitutional rights.

For 2 weeks, our family went through hell. Sleepless nights, press waiting outside our door, Ben had asthma attacks after the police delayed themselves in acquiring the requested medication for 3 days, Mama, who is a cancer patient herself, suffered chest pains and lost her voice.

We felt it was all worth it, for we would be able to have him back.

But now, a new nightmare has begun.

Whether or not Ben is guilty, should not be for the Police to decide. If they HAD the evidence to strengthen their warrant for re-arrest, why was it not brought to court? Why is Ben not given a chance to defend himself? How can we ever know the authenticity of these so called witnesses and their statements? If there were ANY to begin with?

Under this act, I could simply be caught for any crimes of drug offences the police accuse me of, because they can claim they have enough information (even if they have absolutely nothing) and detain me. For 60 days, for 2 years, and even EXTEND it after.

Acts like this and the ISA are licenses for ARBITRARY arrest and detention. Anytime. Anywhere. Anybody.

My family and Amer will not back down. We will fight for Ben’s right. We will speak up for all of those who were silenced before us, who will be silenced hereafter.

But we seek your help. In any way at all, help us fight this. Re-post this, write on your blogs, write to your local representative, to our newspapers, and together we shall use our voice, our art, our space, to stand up not just for Ben, but for all our rights.

Liberty is a Constitutional right. It’s time to get it back.
- Elza

For now, where do we go from here…

Looking for home

I have spent the past five years trying to recreate the experience and happiness of the lone five months I spent in Kentucky.
No one will understand how important it is to me.
To some people, the States is just a tourist destination.
Others, a land where evil is born.
To me, it’s home.
Sad but somehow, I feel more at home in a land on the other side of the world than my own home country.
Five years have passed. I am getting more homesick than ever.

Memories of 2009

It is that time of year for my list of memories. Like I predicted, 2009 was filled with more memorable moments. Here is the list.(Not in chronogical order)

Black lipsticks and corsets

Hamburg & Berlin, Germany

Teach Speech and Drama at Blubricks

Jess & Dana (Stage Therapy)

Meeting really awesome people (There are too many to name here and some people would prefer to remain unnamed)

Reconnecting with long lost friends

Starting my Twitter account

Photo shoots with Sparky Dawg and Candid Photography

Gigs at Borders

Sze Lei and Barne Gene’s wedding

Last Words (filmed)

My Fiery Skull Poken (Very unexpected present)

Dhaka, Bangladesh

Sex Dice for a Birthday Present ( I have a cheeky friend)

A Lifetime of Lessons (staged)

Arthur’s Day Celebration

Reunion Dinner with the KKF team (I missed the gang so much)

Discovering Illy coffee

Steamboat dinner with Shin Kae and Joi

Getting my very own digital camera

New job with IRC

Halloween Party

XR’s 30th Birthday dinner

The One Thing I Don’t Have Right Now (My proper stage comeback)

Working with Gavin Yap

Anugerah Skrin 2009

Eric and Pui Ling’s wedding

Birth of the luckiest chair in KL

Seeing Noah after 18 months and finally meeting Katryn

Being part of a photo exhibition (A photo of me was hanging in KLPAC)

X’mas dinner with the family at El Cerdo

Watching fireworks ‘war’ on the balcony while ushering in 2010

Oh, yeah!!! 2010 will be even more awesome!!!

Lessons of 2009

Wow! Another year has gone by. It means I am one year closer to being in my 30s!!! Aiya!!!
Another year older, another year wiser.

Once again I am compiling the list of lessons I have learnt this past year through both observation and experience. A lot of drama has unfold before me and for some, I am really glad that I was just the observer.

The phrase ‘Keep your friends close and your enemies closer’ – Who the heck came up with that? It is such thinking that has caused people to lose trust in people that are important. There is nothing worse than being suspicious about the people you interact with on a daily basis. Your mind is so filled up with how other people are going to harm you that you do not function properly. Fine, be careful, be aware, thread on eggshells if you must around certain individuals but do not let it consume you to the point of no return.

People around you – There are two types of people that you will come across in your life. The completers and the depleters. Completers are people who encourage you, who make you feel worthy of yourself, who give you the positive energy that you need and all that good stuff. Yes, I am going to go and be super corny by quoting the line, “YOU COMPLETE ME!” from the movie Jerry Macguire. Depleters are just basically the opposite, people who you want to keep away with a restraining order (DO NOT COME WITHIN 100 YARDS OF ME!!!!)

Never mix business with pleasure – Unless you (and the person you are involved with) are matured enough. However, someone told me that being in love can bring out the kid in a person and make you do things that you will regret 5 to 10 years from now. So yeah, I say Naye!!!

Confidence – A good friend (at least I think he is a good friend, he still calls me a stranger. Go figure!) said the worse enemy for a girl is not FAT but the lack of SELF CONFIDENCE.

Being myself – No matter what I do, there will always be critics. So do I feel good about myself when I do things that brings me joy and does not harm anyone? Yes, then what other people think should not matter. And to quote Dr. Seuss “Be who you are and say what you feel. Those who matter won’t mind and those who mind, won’t matter.”

Mistakes – I love mistakes because it gives you the opportunities to learn and better yourself. Sadly there are people who are so worried about making mistakes that they end up making major blunders that will take years to rectify.

Forgiveness – Learn to forgive others because that is the biggest weight you can lift off your own shoulders. You do not need to forget but by forgiving, you will not become vindictive, bitter and most importantly you will repel all negative energy that is associated with the person.

Faith – No matter what religion you are; which God or deity you worship, whether you conform to any conformist forms of believing in a higher being. Learn to have more faith in everyone and everything.

Passion – Do everything with a passion. As many haters there are out there, there are as many or even more believers and supporters.

There are many things I have learnt. But these are my top choices. Enjoy!

Some wishes have came true

Was going through some old entries and found my Christmas wishlist from 2008. Here’s the update.

1. A digital camera  – This is under a might list because I might get a hand-me down. Fingers crossed.

2. DVD of Across The Universe – Not exactly but I have got it recorded on the Astro Max.

3. A cool design for this outdated website – Well, you are looking at it.
4. A portfolio shoot of  headshots and the whole lot – Planning to get some more done but Sparky Dawg and Candid Photography has done some good shots of me.
5. A black laced corset – Bought a few corsets while in Germany and I had a friend buy me some stuff from London as well.
6. A pair of high knee leather boots – Saw a really nice pair in Germany but not practical for our Malaysian weather.
7. Thomas Sabo lucky charm – Call me a cheapo but I bought  a similar looking one from the stalls at the mall.
8. Katana – Not yet
9. Kimono ala Jigoku Shoujo – Still hunting for it
10. My own entourage of PAs, stylist and publicist – I already have a sort of a stylist. But it has yet to grow into an entourage
11. Can I be cheeky and add WORLD PEACE? – My dream world is at peace…

Heck, you win some, you lose some… I have been fortunate enough. :)